I think I tried to grow up to fast in 6th and 7th grades. I wanted to grow up so fast and I guess it was because I never realized any of the perks of being a kid. I never thought about not being able to re wind and go back. Oh I also eat to fast and sometimes don't even really taste my food....gotta work on that one:)!
i think something that i missed out on because i was moving to fast was hanging out with my grampa more. i never really thought of him leaving forever until it happened, so whenever my mom would ask me if i wanted to go over to their house i would say no. because i would think that they would always be there. then as i was moving to fast to grow up i started to not go over there at all. i started only seeing him on holidays. and then on day he was coming out of the post office, and he missed a step. he fell. black in both eyes, boot on his foot. i thought we were gonna lose him. so then i started to slow down my life a little bit. quit soccer. one less day to miss seeing him. i started to go over there whenever i could. the first time i saw him after his fall, i wanted to cry. i just couldnt look at him when he was in that condition. then a couple months later, my grandpa had to fight something else. cancer. this was the biggest hit on him. he really wasnt strong enough to handle all the medicine, and all the pins and needle he had to take. so, they put him in the hospital. i had to visit him. so i went with my sister, brother, and mom to visit him. and when i walked into that room. i broke down. i couldnt handle tht environment. that one gu that i always thought would be there was getting closer and closer to not being there. eventually we left. so the next week came. it's my birthday week. grampa's still in the hospital. october 22nd comes around. still in the hospital. october 23rd, 5:10 am. the phone rings. John Dolan passed away. on my birthday.
i wish i couldve slowed down my life to talk to him more because now that i think about it i dont really remember much about him. cant even remember what his voice sounds like. i cant even picture him in my head anymore. the main thing that i do remember is that he loved me very much. and i love him.
Dan, I'm soo sryy! I wish I could've been there to comfort you if i new it had happened. If you ever need anyone to tlk to my ears are always open to listen
In my life, its not me who is going to fast. When I was my sisters age I was still watching cute little shows like Out Of The Box :P But my sister is going into 5th grade next year and she already wants to use my hair straightener. I didnt start to care about my hair until like half way through 6th grade. I dont want her to miss out on being a kid because there arent as many perks to growing up as a little kid thinks. I wish that i could go back to the times when the biggest crisis in life was that someone pinched me lol. I have tried to keep her from growing to fast because she will miss out on her innocence if she doesnt slow down.
There is only ONE thing i wish i could change and its kinda like Dan's. Austin got me thinking about it today. I wish I had been able to see my Nan more often. She died when i was 4 or 5. I remember being forced to visit her in her retirement home and hating seeing her in such a bad condition, I always rushed my mom to get me out of there because it was hard for me. Now i regret it and i would do anything to get to talk to her again. I also wish I could have given her a necklace that i made that said "Nan and me" on it for her birthday but she died the day before. now I wear the necklace almost everyday and whenever I perform :) I do miss her though and i wish i could go back and instead of running around trying to find my way out, i couldve talked to her and gotten to spend as much time as possible with her. ~Jenna~
I've missed a lot in my life because i went too fast! I've missed being with family, doing activities, etc. I missed out on seeing my Grandpa before he passed away. Kind of like Dan's situation, but yet a bit different. He was not filled with cancer but he smoked too much and it harmed his lungs then he had trouble breathing and he passed away. My neighbor at the shore also passed away a few weeks ago at the age of 84 and i REGRET(my word for the project) not talking to her as much... whenever i would see her come outside i would walk the other way because i didn't want anyone to see her give me a kiss. I mean it was awkward... yea we were close to her but i didn't want her kissing me! They found out a few weeks ago when she ended up collapsing on her floor and went to the hospital that she had cancer through out her body, while she was also suffering from severe dehydration. And then after a few weeks of being in the hospital she got pneumonia. After that it just became too much to handle for an 84 year old woman. And on Tuesday, May 18 she finally passed away. It was devastating to hear beings we were friendly with her and she was my grandmas best friend. I will admit i will miss her and instead of going to lacrosse practice for 1 or 2 nights i could've went to see her. If i went to see her maybe i wouldn't have so much guilt built up. She died too quickly, along with my grandpa. Those are 2 people that i will regret not seeing as much because i was trying to grow up too fast, and you know it wasn't "cool" to visit your grandparents once you hit a certain age. But i much rather would've seen my grandpa and my neighbor, Connie, before they passed away. You realize after they're gone that you should've been there more often.. and went to see them more and spend some time with them. I also missed out on a lot of activities because I kept holding off on the activities because i feared that i would be bad at the sport/activity.... But ofcourse your not good when you first start out. It was just that i thought people would make fun of how bad i was, but who cares as long as your having fun!!! Everyone's bad when they first start out, which i now know. And I play lacrosse, which i started out with in 4th grade and it's soooo much fun (=... but you have to just try things and see how it goes. I mean there are sports that i maybe would've liked to try but now i'm so into my lacrosse that i really haven't done anything else, which may not be a good thing. But again, things just went too fast and i ran out of time and now high school's here... and i'm planning on playing lacrosse(of course.. i wouldn't have wasted so much time with it if i wasn't planning on continuing with it), but i also plan to try new things... slow my life down again and try new things. It should be an adventure haha! But all in all, sometimes, not all the time, you may have regrets that come along with moving through life to quickly and trying to grow up too fast!
Oh and the other day I went to visit my Grandpa's grave and it really made me think of how i should've been there for him and how i wished i could have just one last chance to talk to him. I just wish I could go back in time (=
I think i passed off just being a kid when i was in 5th, 6th, 7th grade. Because i was in that 'popular' scene they liked stuff totally different than me. They were all into kissing boys in 6th grade i was still thought boys had the coots! I think because they grew up too fast i grew up too fast too. Even though I never did anything like them, still prude and proud, im kinda proud because i see all of them and see that when they started doing all that stuff people took advantage of them, and i was so shocked in class when ms.carr was talking about the list before you get into high school, that my name wasnt on it. Because i thought those boys thought i was exactly like them. I remember one time aaron stastiack, when i was at jess s.'s house, came up to me and asked if i had any weed. That tore me up inside because A. i never wanted to be labeled that girl that smoked weed B. where did he think that i had weed C. I have a difficult time with the drug and talking about, with my experiences with my brother and i know never to touch the stuff and im proud i never did because there was a lot of peer pressure there, and to do other stuff. Im proud that i left.
In 8th grade i feel more like a kid than ever. Yeah im annoying and im also gonna be the girl that says the wrong thing, the girl who never gets the obvious, and the girl thats just a kid now, and im not caring as much if people pick on me anymore because they are just like those girls, and they just grew up too fast. And i feel bad for those people, because they need to find the right friends who let you be who you are and laugh with you and never at you. Im just at a place where i finally found what i need, what i want, what i love and have fun doing!
To tell you the full out truth... I dont think I have gone to fast I think others have. I might have missed a few things here and there just because I wasnt paying attention. Like I want to drive but I kinda want to just wait and live life good before I go out to get a job and grow up. You no??? Anyways from what I know I havent really missed anything... atleast I dont think I did. Like others some might have grown up to fast and missed out on things. OOOOHHHHHH one more thing this quote is what I like to follow... "I shall never grow up, make believe is much to fun!" by ? ~Theresa ☺
If i could get back one moment in my life. i would most definitely have to say, just being a ordinary kid. Being able to go out in the rain and run around,go out in the mud and not care what i look like, just simply to be a kid again. It would be my life dream. There is no drama with being a little kid. And being our age and older there is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo X1000000 much drama. So if i could go back to one moment in my life it would have to be that.
Megan, your post is really, really good. I think I was moving too fast in about 4th grade. My grandpa had been diagnosed with cancer, and whenever my parents went to see him, I would never go with them. My grandma had cancer also, but she fought and survived it. I thought that my grandpa was going to do the same thing. He had cancer for a couple years, and when I was in 5th grade, he started to go downhill with his health. I went to go see him one night. I walked into his hospital room with my family. He lay there in the bed, and it didn't look like my Granpop Sam. He was so skinny to the point where you could see his bones, and that crushed me. He looked like he had been through so much, and he was about ready to give up. The following morning, we got the call that he had passed away in the middle of the night. I was devistated.
I still regret not spending as much time with him when he was diagnosed. But I know that one day I'll be with him in heaven, and I willl apologize to him for not spending as much time with him. I was deffinetly moving too fast, and thinking that he would be just fine.
you all know my little cousin Brionna who passed away a couple months ago. i know i talk about her a lot.. but im sorry if im annoying. so if i could get some time left with her i would. we would always play cards and i would give her her favorite candy (which she wasnt aloud to have but i spoiled her anyway) i thought she would be here forever. when she needed my help with boys. when she wanted to borrow my clothes. when i would have to talk her out of doing the stupid stuff. i was wrong. shes gone now. she will never borrow my clothes. she will never need my help. because shes gone now. and i hate myself because i think every day "if you just would have played one more card game with her instead of resisting, you would have made her happier". i used to get so annoyed with how she would make up her own rules. but now i would kill to get 30 seconds with her. to tell her i love her and that i will always be there for her, even if it was only for the next 20 seconds. i think everyday that its all my fault. that i made her unhappy at one point. and that tears me apart... i mean im crying right now. its horrible. i think everyday that im a horrible person and that i could have made her happier if i could just deal with it. but shes gone now. and theres nothing i can do about it. i would kill to get just one more game of cards, to give her one more bag of her favorite candy. but i cant. ~Autumn <3 P.s. i really liked dan's post. nice jobb :)
im with jenna on this one. it was never me moving too fast it was my sister. this year she put on makeup one day and from that day on she has put on makeup. along with the makeup she straightens her hair everyday! and she always wears tight shirts. i wish she could come back because i miss doing things with her like just sit down and do stupid things like play board games and such. now all she wants to do is sit in her room and text all fricken day and it drives me crazy because i can see her missing out on things and i know i don't regret being a kid one day of my life. i guess why it makes me so mad is because she is putting on makeup before i do and i just see her loose her innocence everyday and i see her becoming one of those snob popular kids. hopefully she will have mr.g as a teacher and she will learn to slow down and enjoy to be a kid. but if she doesn't than i don't know what hope she has of going back to being a kid again.
autumn 1.you are no a horrible person 2.it is not your fault that that happened. it was sooo tragic and i saw how it broke down your cousin ( Sarah) to pieces! and please don't think your annoying talking about because i love to read it because i feel like i am getting to know her and you. if you ever need to talk just ask me
Autumn Gorman!! You are NOT annoying. I know it was hard for you and you can talk about it all you want. I was there for you when it first happened, I cried in the bathroom wtih you, and Im still here for you today. Its definatly not your fault. theres nothing anyone couldve done. You helped her have a great life and she is in a better place now. i swear by it :) ~Jenna~
Yeah Jess, I agree with you. Autumn I am here for you too. Any time. Even though I don't know you very well, I'm here if you ever need to just talk about her.
Wow Autumn, That was really heart felt, but you can't be so hard on yourself. It's not your fault, and you are far from a horrible person! And honestly, that made me cry... i mean i never met her but just from that I can imagine being in your situation right now. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on I'm here =)
i think i definately went to fast when it came to my great-grandma. I used to go over house almost everyday when i was little, but then we moved here and i haven't seen her in 7 years straight. A few times we went passed her house on our way to go fishing at a creek and we thought about stopping by but we didn't, thinking that another time we will visit her...but we never did. Then we get the news that she passed away and it is too late to see her now...The only memories i can think of are that she made me waffles in a pop out toaster that used to scare me because they poped out of no where and that she had a fun swingset in her back yard... i wish i could have took the time to actually make other memories with her than those, but it's too late to now, all because i was moving too fast and not thinking. -jessica s :)
i missed living the life of a kid because of being thrown in so much stuff it is like thinking about now makes me feel like i was the peoson watching my life go by. it started when i was 5 and i was taken out of my parents house and put in to foster care. that is when stuff sped up because i moved from placement to placement in such a short amount of time you really didnt have time to start making friends and hanging out as much. like now i miss 2 years in my mind like it is a blank when i turned 7 that september 23rd i had my car accident after school. thats when somebody put a brick wall to slow me down. it dosent seem like much when you think of it then but 7 years later it's like how did i miss that much?
thanks guys :) it really means a lot to me, jess and emilee, that we have never really had a conversation and you are willing to let me tallk to you:) it really means a lot to me. and jackie and jenna, thank you :) <3 ~Autumn <3 rest in peace Brionna :) <3
im ganna have to agree with shawn millster. its not that your going to fast. its just kinda like that you just let them slip by without noticing until its too late.:) Haas
So I look at my little sister, & I see how she's such a kid & has so much to look forward too & I always wonder what happened to me. I grew up so fast with my mom not being around allot, & I was always told by every adult in my life that I had to be responsible for me & her ever since I can remember. I look at the things she's doing with her friends and she's still so innocent, & I can't remember being like that. There such a difference between us she doesn't even come to me with anything. Me & her barely talk & we live two rooms apart. I wonder everything I've missed in her life & if she'll make the same mistakes I've made. She's the only one of us that's close with my mom though. So I mean she always has her, but now that my older sister's gone it's almost like I'm alone in a crowded room.
I feel like I've missed out on just being a kid. I've grown up way too fast, not intentionally, but growing up all i wanted was to be just like my three older sisters. I wanted to be doing everything they were doing,and was more focused on their life than i was mine. For those who really know me, I still have a lot of little kid left inside. I feel like everyone our age is trying to grow up too fast. We're all still kids. and all still have a lot of growing up to do.
i think the thing i miss the most because we were moving to fast was my great grandmom. she passed away last year, the story austin told today in class had the same effect on me that it did on him. everyday i wish i could do something that could bring her back, but nothing works. and when i was younger i thought she was annoying but as i got older we grew closer and the things she said to me really made me think. she was always here for me, and i miss that. when i had a problem in school, guy issues, etc... she was who i went to. i mean i have my bestfriends that i can go to but its just not the same.i miss her soo much, everyday. thats what i miss because i was moving to fast. -nichole :)
i havent really miseed anything in my life. I really just live at my own pace and dont try to grow up. I still build couch forts,play in the snow<and do everything a kid does. So if i really thought about it I havent missed really aything.
In my life i dont really go to fast. i try to act like a kid as much as i can. but when im around other people i sometimes ack like im much older. But my good friends i can be more like a littl kid we sometimes make forts, have water gun fights, nerf wars, etc... whenever i do this i always have so much fun!! I wish i could be like that all the time.
I have missed alot and just realized it in the past 6 months. I never though that I'd be moving and I didn't pay attention to the little things that make life so fun. Since I learned I am moving I have taken every little thing that is fun in New Jersey, and pennsalvainia for granted. Like camping, skiing, shooting, campfires with friends, ect. If I could go back in time I would and do all these things a long time ago.
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I dont think i have really missed anything because i was going to fast. It is more like i didnt pay attention to them.
Miller
I think I tried to grow up to fast in 6th and 7th grades. I wanted to grow up so fast and I guess it was because I never realized any of the perks of being a kid. I never thought about not being able to re wind and go back. Oh I also eat to fast and sometimes don't even really taste my food....gotta work on that one:)!
Leah O.:)
i think something that i missed out on because i was moving to fast was hanging out with my grampa more. i never really thought of him leaving forever until it happened, so whenever my mom would ask me if i wanted to go over to their house i would say no. because i would think that they would always be there. then as i was moving to fast to grow up i started to not go over there at all. i started only seeing him on holidays. and then on day he was coming out of the post office, and he missed a step. he fell. black in both eyes, boot on his foot. i thought we were gonna lose him. so then i started to slow down my life a little bit. quit soccer. one less day to miss seeing him. i started to go over there whenever i could. the first time i saw him after his fall, i wanted to cry. i just couldnt look at him when he was in that condition. then a couple months later, my grandpa had to fight something else. cancer. this was the biggest hit on him. he really wasnt strong enough to handle all the medicine, and all the pins and needle he had to take. so, they put him in the hospital. i had to visit him. so i went with my sister, brother, and mom to visit him. and when i walked into that room. i broke down. i couldnt handle tht environment. that one gu that i always thought would be there was getting closer and closer to not being there. eventually we left. so the next week came. it's my birthday week. grampa's still in the hospital. october 22nd comes around. still in the hospital. october 23rd, 5:10 am. the phone rings. John Dolan passed away. on my birthday.
i wish i couldve slowed down my life to talk to him more because now that i think about it i dont really remember much about him. cant even remember what his voice sounds like. i cant even picture him in my head anymore. the main thing that i do remember is that he loved me very much. and i love him.
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Dan that is so sad! I also wish I could do the same thing and go back to talk to my grandpa.
Leah O.
Dan,
I'm soo sryy! I wish I could've been there to comfort you if i new it had happened. If you ever need anyone to tlk to my ears are always open to listen
~Jackie K.
In my life, its not me who is going to fast. When I was my sisters age I was still watching cute little shows like Out Of The Box :P But my sister is going into 5th grade next year and she already wants to use my hair straightener. I didnt start to care about my hair until like half way through 6th grade. I dont want her to miss out on being a kid because there arent as many perks to growing up as a little kid thinks. I wish that i could go back to the times when the biggest crisis in life was that someone pinched me lol. I have tried to keep her from growing to fast because she will miss out on her innocence if she doesnt slow down.
There is only ONE thing i wish i could change and its kinda like Dan's.
Austin got me thinking about it today. I wish I had been able to see my Nan more often. She died when i was 4 or 5. I remember being forced to visit her in her retirement home and hating seeing her in such a bad condition, I always rushed my mom to get me out of there because it was hard for me. Now i regret it and i would do anything to get to talk to her again. I also wish I could have given her a necklace that i made that said "Nan and me" on it for her birthday but she died the day before. now I wear the necklace almost everyday and whenever I perform :) I do miss her though and i wish i could go back and instead of running around trying to find my way out, i couldve talked to her and gotten to spend as much time as possible with her.
~Jenna~
I've missed a lot in my life because i went too fast! I've missed being with family, doing activities, etc. I missed out on seeing my Grandpa before he passed away. Kind of like Dan's situation, but yet a bit different. He was not filled with cancer but he smoked too much and it harmed his lungs then he had trouble breathing and he passed away. My neighbor at the shore also passed away a few weeks ago at the age of 84 and i REGRET(my word for the project) not talking to her as much... whenever i would see her come outside i would walk the other way because i didn't want anyone to see her give me a kiss. I mean it was awkward... yea we were close to her but i didn't want her kissing me! They found out a few weeks ago when she ended up collapsing on her floor and went to the hospital that she had cancer through out her body, while she was also suffering from severe dehydration. And then after a few weeks of being in the hospital she got pneumonia. After that it just became too much to handle for an 84 year old woman. And on Tuesday, May 18 she finally passed away. It was devastating to hear beings we were friendly with her and she was my grandmas best friend. I will admit i will miss her and instead of going to lacrosse practice for 1 or 2 nights i could've went to see her. If i went to see her maybe i wouldn't have so much guilt built up. She died too quickly, along with my grandpa. Those are 2 people that i will regret not seeing as much because i was trying to grow up too fast, and you know it wasn't "cool" to visit your grandparents once you hit a certain age. But i much rather would've seen my grandpa and my neighbor, Connie, before they passed away. You realize after they're gone that you should've been there more often.. and went to see them more and spend some time with them.
I also missed out on a lot of activities because I kept holding off on the activities because i feared that i would be bad at the sport/activity.... But ofcourse your not good when you first start out. It was just that i thought people would make fun of how bad i was, but who cares as long as your having fun!!! Everyone's bad when they first start out, which i now know. And I play lacrosse, which i started out with in 4th grade and it's soooo much fun (=... but you have to just try things and see how it goes. I mean there are sports that i maybe would've liked to try but now i'm so into my lacrosse that i really haven't done anything else, which may not be a good thing. But again, things just went too fast and i ran out of time and now high school's here... and i'm planning on playing lacrosse(of course.. i wouldn't have wasted so much time with it if i wasn't planning on continuing with it), but i also plan to try new things... slow my life down again and try new things. It should be an adventure haha!
But all in all, sometimes, not all the time, you may have regrets that come along with moving through life to quickly and trying to grow up too fast!
~Jackie Kelso
Oh and the other day I went to visit my Grandpa's grave and it really made me think of how i should've been there for him and how i wished i could have just one last chance to talk to him. I just wish I could go back in time (=
~Jackie Kelso
I think i passed off just being a kid when i was in 5th, 6th, 7th grade. Because i was in that 'popular' scene they liked stuff totally different than me. They were all into kissing boys in 6th grade i was still thought boys had the coots! I think because they grew up too fast i grew up too fast too. Even though I never did anything like them, still prude and proud, im kinda proud because i see all of them and see that when they started doing all that stuff people took advantage of them, and i was so shocked in class when ms.carr was talking about the list before you get into high school, that my name wasnt on it. Because i thought those boys thought i was exactly like them. I remember one time aaron stastiack, when i was at jess s.'s house, came up to me and asked if i had any weed. That tore me up inside because A. i never wanted to be labeled that girl that smoked weed B. where did he think that i had weed C. I have a difficult time with the drug and talking about, with my experiences with my brother and i know never to touch the stuff and im proud i never did because there was a lot of peer pressure there, and to do other stuff. Im proud that i left.
In 8th grade i feel more like a kid than ever. Yeah im annoying and im also gonna be the girl that says the wrong thing, the girl who never gets the obvious, and the girl thats just a kid now, and im not caring as much if people pick on me anymore because they are just like those girls, and they just grew up too fast. And i feel bad for those people, because they need to find the right friends who let you be who you are and laugh with you and never at you. Im just at a place where i finally found what i need, what i want, what i love and have fun doing!
Megan Basenfelder
To tell you the full out truth... I dont think I have gone to fast I think others have. I might have missed a few things here and there just because I wasnt paying attention. Like I want to drive but I kinda want to just wait and live life good before I go out to get a job and grow up. You no??? Anyways from what I know I havent really missed anything... atleast I dont think I did. Like others some might have grown up to fast and missed out on things. OOOOHHHHHH one more thing this quote is what I like to follow... "I shall never grow up, make believe is much to fun!" by ?
~Theresa ☺
If i could get back one moment in my life. i would most definitely have to say, just being a ordinary kid. Being able to go out in the rain and run around,go out in the mud and not care what i look like, just simply to be a kid again. It would be my life dream. There is no drama with being a little kid. And being our age and older there is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo X1000000 much drama. So if i could go back to one moment in my life it would have to be that.
^^ was michaela howell.(:
Megan, your post is really, really good. I think I was moving too fast in about 4th grade. My grandpa had been diagnosed with cancer, and whenever my parents went to see him, I would never go with them. My grandma had cancer also, but she fought and survived it. I thought that my grandpa was going to do the same thing. He had cancer for a couple years, and when I was in 5th grade, he started to go downhill with his health. I went to go see him one night. I walked into his hospital room with my family. He lay there in the bed, and it didn't look like my Granpop Sam. He was so skinny to the point where you could see his bones, and that crushed me. He looked like he had been through so much, and he was about ready to give up. The following morning, we got the call that he had passed away in the middle of the night. I was devistated.
I still regret not spending as much time with him when he was diagnosed. But I know that one day I'll be with him in heaven, and I willl apologize to him for not spending as much time with him. I was deffinetly moving too fast, and thinking that he would be just fine.
emilee(:
you all know my little cousin Brionna who passed away a couple months ago. i know i talk about her a lot.. but im sorry if im annoying. so if i could get some time left with her i would. we would always play cards and i would give her her favorite candy (which she wasnt aloud to have but i spoiled her anyway) i thought she would be here forever. when she needed my help with boys. when she wanted to borrow my clothes. when i would have to talk her out of doing the stupid stuff. i was wrong. shes gone now. she will never borrow my clothes. she will never need my help. because shes gone now. and i hate myself because i think every day "if you just would have played one more card game with her instead of resisting, you would have made her happier". i used to get so annoyed with how she would make up her own rules. but now i would kill to get 30 seconds with her. to tell her i love her and that i will always be there for her, even if it was only for the next 20 seconds. i think everyday that its all my fault. that i made her unhappy at one point. and that tears me apart... i mean im crying right now. its horrible. i think everyday that im a horrible person and that i could have made her happier if i could just deal with it. but shes gone now. and theres nothing i can do about it. i would kill to get just one more game of cards, to give her one more bag of her favorite candy. but i cant.
~Autumn <3
P.s. i really liked dan's post. nice jobb :)
im with jenna on this one. it was never me moving too fast it was my sister. this year she put on makeup one day and from that day on she has put on makeup. along with the makeup she straightens her hair everyday! and she always wears tight shirts. i wish she could come back because i miss doing things with her like just sit down and do stupid things like play board games and such. now all she wants to do is sit in her room and text all fricken day and it drives me crazy because i can see her missing out on things and i know i don't regret being a kid one day of my life. i guess why it makes me so mad is because she is putting on makeup before i do and i just see her loose her innocence everyday and i see her becoming one of those snob popular kids. hopefully she will have mr.g as a teacher and she will learn to slow down and enjoy to be a kid. but if she doesn't than i don't know what hope she has of going back to being a kid again.
-jessica packard-
autumn 1.you are no a horrible person
2.it is not your fault that that happened. it was sooo tragic and i saw how it broke down your cousin ( Sarah) to pieces! and please don't think your annoying talking about because i love to read it because i feel like i am getting to know her and you. if you ever need to talk just ask me
-jessica packard-
rest in peace Brionna
Autumn Gorman!!
You are NOT annoying. I know it was hard for you and you can talk about it all you want. I was there for you when it first happened, I cried in the bathroom wtih you, and Im still here for you today. Its definatly not your fault. theres nothing anyone couldve done. You helped her have a great life and she is in a better place now. i swear by it :)
~Jenna~
Yeah Jess, I agree with you. Autumn I am here for you too. Any time. Even though I don't know you very well, I'm here if you ever need to just talk about her.
emilee(:
rest in peace Brionna
Wow Autumn,
That was really heart felt, but you can't be so hard on yourself. It's not your fault, and you are far from a horrible person!
And honestly, that made me cry... i mean i never met her but just from that I can imagine being in your situation right now. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on I'm here =)
~Jackie Kelso
i think i definately went to fast when it came to my great-grandma. I used to go over house almost everyday when i was little, but then we moved here and i haven't seen her in 7 years straight. A few times we went passed her house on our way to go fishing at a creek and we thought about stopping by but we didn't, thinking that another time we will visit her...but we never did. Then we get the news that she passed away and it is too late to see her now...The only memories i can think of are that she made me waffles in a pop out toaster that used to scare me because they poped out of no where and that she had a fun swingset in her back yard... i wish i could have took the time to actually make other memories with her than those, but it's too late to now, all because i was moving too fast and not thinking.
-jessica s :)
i missed living the life of a kid because of being thrown in so much stuff it is like thinking about now makes me feel like i was the peoson watching my life go by. it started when i was 5 and i was taken out of my parents house and put in to foster care. that is when stuff sped up because i moved from placement to placement in such a short amount of time you really didnt have time to start making friends and hanging out as much. like now i miss 2 years in my mind like it is a blank when i turned 7 that september 23rd i had my car accident after school. thats when somebody put a brick wall to slow me down. it dosent seem like much when you think of it then but 7 years later it's like how did i miss that much?
Craig O
thanks guys :) it really means a lot to me, jess and emilee, that we have never really had a conversation and you are willing to let me tallk to you:) it really means a lot to me.
and jackie and jenna, thank you :) <3
~Autumn <3
rest in peace Brionna :) <3
im ganna have to agree with shawn millster. its not that your going to fast. its just kinda like that you just let them slip by without noticing until its too late.:)
Haas
So I look at my little sister, & I see how she's such a kid & has so much to look forward too & I always wonder what happened to me. I grew up so fast with my mom not being around allot, & I was always told by every adult in my life that I had to be responsible for me & her ever since I can remember. I look at the things she's doing with her friends and she's still so innocent, & I can't remember being like that. There such a difference between us she doesn't even come to me with anything. Me & her barely talk & we live two rooms apart. I wonder everything I've missed in her life & if she'll make the same mistakes I've made. She's the only one of us that's close with my mom though. So I mean she always has her, but now that my older sister's gone it's almost like I'm alone in a crowded room.
K.Siggy
I feel like I've missed out on just being a kid. I've grown up way too fast, not intentionally, but growing up all i wanted was to be just like my three older sisters. I wanted to be doing everything they were doing,and was more focused on their life than i was mine. For those who really know me, I still have a lot of little kid left inside. I feel like everyone our age is trying to grow up too fast. We're all still kids. and all still have a lot of growing up to do.
h garth
Kelsey,
You are not alone. You have all of us supporting you. If anyone ever wants to talk I would be happy to listen.:)
Leah O.:)
i think the thing i miss the most because we were moving to fast was my great grandmom. she passed away last year, the story austin told today in class had the same effect on me that it did on him. everyday i wish i could do something that could bring her back, but nothing works. and when i was younger i thought she was annoying but as i got older we grew closer and the things she said to me really made me think. she was always here for me, and i miss that. when i had a problem in school, guy issues, etc... she was who i went to. i mean i have my bestfriends that i can go to but its just not the same.i miss her soo much, everyday.
thats what i miss because i was moving to fast.
-nichole :)
i havent really miseed anything in my life. I really just live at my own pace and dont try to grow up. I still build couch forts,play in the snow<and do everything a kid does. So if i really thought about it I havent missed really aything.
Luke Gilbert
In my life i dont really go to fast. i try to act like a kid as much as i can. but when im around other people i sometimes ack like im much older. But my good friends i can be more like a littl kid we sometimes make forts, have water gun fights, nerf wars, etc... whenever i do this i always have so much fun!! I wish i could be like that all the time.
Szelcer*
I have missed alot and just realized it in the past 6 months. I never though that I'd be moving and I didn't pay attention to the little things that make life so fun. Since I learned I am moving I have taken every little thing that is fun in New Jersey, and pennsalvainia for granted. Like camping, skiing, shooting, campfires with friends, ect.
If I could go back in time I would and do all these things a long time ago.
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